“I talk to my inner lover, and I say, why such rush?
We sense that there is some sort of spirit that loves
birds and animals and the ants–
perhaps the same one who gave a radiance to you
in your mother’s womb.
Is it logical you would be walking around entirely orphaned now?
The truth is you turned away yourself,
and decided to go into the dark alone.
Now you are tangled up in others, and have forgotten
what you once knew,
and that’s why everything you do has some weird sense of failure in it.”
— Kabir (1440-1518)
Once you have awareness, you can make decisions that take your life in a new direction. You can begin to give to yourself what you have longed for.
The past can haunt us, if we let it. Events that happened. Things said. Beliefs we took on or formed in the moment of an upset. Whose voice is that? Is it useful?
If you’re not happy along the way, then how did you succeed?
You’ve been in a certain pattern and even though you may have an understanding that you want things to be different, you haven’t really come to a conclusion about how to have things be different in a way that is satisfying. You keep going back to the need to bring things to another level of satisfaction. You have understanding but you haven’t decided to do it differently. And then deciding HOW to do things differently.
There’s a part of us that is constantly giving us information about what action to take. The question is whether we are fighting with that aspect of ourselves, that’s trying to provide us with feedback about the situation or circumstance that we find ourselves in, or whether we are listening and allowing that feeling that’s trying to get across a message, to communicate to us in a way that is effective.